人間失格

Most women have only to lay eyes on you to want to be doing something for you so badly they can't stand it...

...blown about and ripped by the dusty spring wind, it (the kite) nevertheless clung tenaciously to the wires, as if in affirmation of something.

..I...was the only one completely left out...

...it comes as a shock if by chance I notice in the street a face resembling someone I know however slightly, and I am at once seized by a shivering violent enoug to make me dizzy.

...the manner of speech of everybody in the world - held strange, elusive complexities, intricately presented with overtones of vagueness...

I yearned with such desperation for "freedom" that I became weak ans tearful.

The weak fear happiness itself.

I felt no obligation to perform my clownish antics for her. I drank in silence, not bothering to hide the taciturnity and gloominess which were my true nature.

I felt, rather, as if being next to her in itself made it unnecessary to worry.

I felt afraid no matter where I was.