And why don't you write? Write! Writing is for you, you are for you: your body is yours, take it. I know why you haven't written. Because writing is at once too high, too great for you, it's reserved for the great—that is, for "great men"; and it's "silly". Besides, you've written a little, but in secret. And it wasn't good, because it was in secret, and because you punished yourself for writing, because you didn't go all the way; or because you wrote, irresistibly, as when we would masturbate in secret, not to go further, but to attenuate the tension a bit, just enough to take the edge off. And then as soon as we come, we go and make ourselves feel guilty—so as to be forgiven; or to forget, to bury it until the next time.