All that is giving me... «The Only Light Left Burning»
limonnayasloechka21 февраля 2025All that is giving me constant anxiety, but more than anything, I’m joking because I don’t want to say that the pain is so awful and so relentless that sometimes—despite everything we’ve survived—I’m not scared of dying anymore. Dying would at least mean no more pain. Now, what scares me the most is the pain not going away. What if it stays hovering at a nine out of ten for my whole life and I become a nasty, miserable person because of it?
That’s why I’m trying to joke. Trying to be funny and make sure the people I love don’t get annoyed that I’m cranky because I’m in endless, agonizing pain.21