It's true, you can die at any time, but I've never felt my life was in imme-diate danger, just that it was always in danger, so I had better get on with living it. That attitude meant I refused to take a boring job, or make a decision I really didn't want to, just because it might give me enough money to do something interesting in the future. I had no time for deferred gratifi-cation. That wasted time in the present suddenly seemed too harsh a payment. It wasn't about thinking 'live fast, die young', it was more that I knew what I wanted to be happy, fulfilled and free and I wasn't willing to do things that weren't in pursuit of that.