Pillow Thoughts

you were always miles away. maybe you were just always meant to be miles away. the distance saw us together in a dream and thought we were better off without all the mess

even if your sadness
feels quite heavy
the truth is
it’s just a paperweight
learn to turn the page

i knew what i was going to say; i had rehearsed my goodbye over and over again, but you left without a word

the stars have died
and left their light to you
remember this when
you feel weak
and worthless
and blue

you’re beautiful
without even trying
but each time
i bring you a flower
it ends up dying
and you don’t see
how i look at you
you just keep crying
and the saddest part
is that you’re so special
but you think i'm lying

who made you feel like this toxic thing like no one wants you and you don’t belong? who made you feel like your scars aren’t beautiful and your baggage isn’t worth carrying? who made you feel like you don’t deserve everything and you aren’t someone worth keeping?

i know who you are
i love who you are
and that’s why i’ll stay
so you learn to love
yourself too

you stole so much of me, more than i had ever planned
but it is a new day and i feel like coming home
back to all the parts of me i’d forgot, the part that i don’t feel
so alone

how does loneliness still exist with all these souls in the world?

you spend your whole life convincing yourself you are a chapter worth following, and then someone comes along and doesn’t want to read the ending and suddenly the whole story falls apart