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RamingoWS20 мая 2018 г.The door closed behind him with a soft but neverhteless grating creak. Everything in the country made noise, but it was never the right sort of noise. In the city, everything was boisterous, vibrant, chasing you at the heels so that you had to step lively every second to survive.
In the country, everything sighed like a dying man.033
RamingoWS20 мая 2018 г.Читать далееAs Hal read, I drifted in and out of a conscious state, turning the words over in my head to discern another meaning if I could. It was an old game, made for common rooms and peers. One of the things they taught you in the Basquiat was that nothing had only one use, one meaning, one state of being.
Magicians understood this, and thus were better able to change the realities around them. Of course, the true and greater source of our power was the closely guarded Well. But, as youths, the ideologies of our professors had ignited some whimsical spark within us, and many a night was spent reading passages and trying to understand not what was, but what could be.
In the war, such thinking saved my life, as not even allies can say what they mean -- or mean what they say -- in every instance.025
RamingoWS20 мая 2018 г.Читать далееThe tutor, Hal, took to reading to me near the end of my second week in exile. And, when I offered no immediate protest, the practice became first habit, then ritual. Resignation, boredom, the sheep, the incessand andconstant proliferation of uninspiring trees, the coming of cold weather, my own idiocy and self-pity, my shame and loss -- all these factors conspired against me until I was helpless against my external forces, incapable of making any choice or decision. I allowed Hal to do as he pleased when it pleased him, and while part of me grudgingly anticipated his arrival each evening to coax me toward food and conversation, I knew my brother had put him up to the task. Still, it was a break in the monotony of my day that interested me -- even if it was only a vague interest, in that it was not expressly disinterest. I felt enveloped not in a blizzard but in a fog; I could barely muster the enthusiasm to roll out of bed in the morning, leave my dust-settled room, and roam the blocky, uninspired hallway.
I recognized the signs: This was depression, in its purest and most clinical form. Despite my self-awareness, I was incapable of warding off its advance -- perhaps because I no longer cared if it swallowed me whole. It was quite possible I hadn`t noticed its first stages and was already long lost to its grip.017






















