Forty 2 Days

We are all of us alone trapped in our own version of hell.

— Никто не может забрать у тебя то, что действительно твое,

любовь и ненависть являются двумя концами одной и той же нити

— Никто не может забрать у тебя то, что действительно твое.

„Dear God, this is my sincere and most fervent prayer, if Blake must burn in hell for eternity, then I must burn with him. For we are two souls that must never again be parted.‟

I remember my grandmother saying, Gods are not beings like people. It is only humans who have given them arms and legs and faces. They are metaphors for all the things human consciousness can aspire to.

„It‟s all right. I knew you would. Once you sold yourself for your mother. I knew you would do the same for me.‟

„There was a time I used think Arab men were mad to keep their women covered and hidden. Now I know where the need comes from.‟ He jabs his finger into the hard wall of his stomach. „In here.‟

Men are strong in a physical way, they don‟t know how to be strong in an emotional way. He thinks if I have no bruises I have no pain.

I remember Jack saying, no man wants a woman for just 42 days. You‟ll end up as his mistress.

I want him to say he loves me, even if it is just a little, but I won‟t push anymore, I might hear something I don‟t want to. It is always cleverer to quit while still ahead.

You don‟t trust anyone, you don‟t love anyone, you‟re just an emotional bonsai

Everything that happens between a man and a woman is a sacred journey, my mother once said.

I am like the lock of hair on his head that will not be tamed.