“Look, I know you probably think I’m the worst choice you could ever make.”
Tate said nothing to disagree with that, but ran a hand up through his hair.
“But you already know all the bad shit about me. Come on, what else is worrying you?”
“Really? You’re asking me that?” Tate questioned incredulously almost as though he thought Logan was crazy. “Let me list it for you. Let’s say I do this, all of this, and for a week, you’re happy, content, and you get what you want. We continue, and my coworkers start asking questions, my soon-to-be-ex-wife somehow finds out, and God forbid, my family does, too. Then, you get bored a week later and say, ‘I’m sorry, Tate, but it was fun.’ That’s all that’s worrying me—the entire upheaval of my life. And all because you want to sleep with me.”
Logan sat back, and this time, he straddled his legs out and around Tate’s before he pulled them in, trapping the other man’s between his own.
“First off, I would never do that to you.”
“How do I know that?” Tate demanded.
“You don’t. You’d have to trust me.”
“Do you know how ridiculous that sounds? I’m sorry, but do you know what I see when I look at you?”
Logan was pretty sure that this was not going to be flattering, but he went ahead and asked anyway, “No. What do you see?”
“I see reckless. I see untrustworthy. I see someone that I’m terrified to take a risk on because I don’t know if he’ll be there to grab my hand if I jump off that cliff.” Pausing, Tate leaned in. “You said earlier that I’m a rebel. Well, I’m not. I’m boring, I’m everyday normal, and I haven’t dated since I left my wife. But you came along, and now, I don’t know what to think.”
“So, that’s it then? Tate, every decision, whether it’s between a man and a woman or two men, always comes with risks. To think otherwise is naive, and you’re not that. But I can’t give you guarantees. I can only give you my word, and if that’s not enough…”
Tate shut his eyes for a second, and Logan had to physically stop himself from reaching across the table to try to soothe the man.
“If that’s not enough,” he started again, “then why are we even here?” Logan wanted to know as his temper rose.
Tate peered back at him. “Because you’re the first person who has made me feel since I walked away from that disaster. And you’re the only person that I think about when I can’t fucking sleep at night.”