Gut Symmetries

They are their own kingdom, too primitive to be a republic, and when they want to, they send their armies to batter me.

Quite often I had the disagreeable sensation that I was being thought.

Sometimes words dock and there is a cheer at port and cargo to unload and such relief that the voyage was worth it.

The sun has kept his promise and risen again.

I am of the generation brought up on romance. Where is the one for me?

Dreams do dream us, don't they? We are not the ones in control.

In the Torah, the Hebrew 'to know', often used in a sexual context, is not about facts but about connections. Knowledge, not as accumulation but as charge and discharge. A release of energy from one site to another.

I don't own my emotions unless I can think about them. I am not afraid of feeling but I am afraid of feeling unthinkingly. I don't want to drown. My head is my heart's lifebelt.

It began. Of course it did. Simple, solid, knowable, confined. A love affair. A commonality of life as dependable as life itself.

Here is a Faustian world of self-gratification. Set outside of time, it looks real, it tastes real, inevitably it vanishes. If that brings bitterness it also removes responsibility. Outside of time there is no responsibility.